Writing In Imperfection

Well, this is my first blog post. I guess you already knew that. Oops. So why am I writing it again?

Funny you ask that. I’m still discovering the answer myself. You see, I feel like words are just pouring out of me faster than I can think. The problem is I’m a perfectionist. I am terrified of writing something that isn’t perfect. As a writer, that isn’t really going very well for me. Just getting this first blog post finished is a big step. Imperfection is reality. Sometimes it’s beautiful…..that isn’t the case here but I feel a little better writing it.

So here I am. I’ve got my headphones on, jamming to Pandora Radio and my fingers are itching to fly across the keyboard. As I began typing the first song to play was “On Top Of The World” by imagine dragons. Turns out that song makes a really great jump-start for beginning something new.

Despite that lovely jump-start I am unsure of where to go from here. I can’t seem to get this middle bit right! Essays and blog posts are kind of like life. The easiest parts are the beginning and the end. It’s in the middle, where the most important things are accomplished, that things are difficult.

Even so, I can’t help but acknowledge that writing this feels amazing! I’m not writing any great masterpiece with depth, precision and perfection. But I’m writing. If I can do it, so can every other frightened writer out there. I feel like I’m on top of the world, and that makes this worth the effort.

Don’t ever be discouraged in your writing. Everyone makes mistakes, even professional writers. I keep saying that but in the back of my mind there is this little voice going “Regardless of how true that is, it doesn’t excuse the blatant and numerous mistakes in your writing.” My biggest problem is that I have allowed my fear to overwhelm the joy I take in writing. Don’t let your fear get to you. It’s a waste of energy and it ends up hurting you in the end. Fear kills. Quite literally.And besides, what’s the worst that could happen? (Seriously though, I would love to know.) I guess I’m about to find out anyways….just as soon as I hit that little publish button.

My only hope is that once I’ve overcome my fear I don’t go to the other side. Pride kills too. Fortunately pride is not a common affliction amongst writers. Unfortunately it is all too common within myself. I pray that I may make a career out of my writing, but I also pray that doing so will ensure that I stay humble. Every word I have ever written that actually meant something wasn’t just me. Sure, I write because I love it. But I also write because my Creator put that within me. At  times, He even tells me what  to write. (Those times are  the best!)

So I guess I’ll end with this……not because this has been a fantastic piece and is ready to be wrapped up but rather because I’ve said all that I feel the need to say right now. I am a writer, I’m young and inexperienced and making any of my work public is a terrifying thought. But I’m not alone, and I hope this is encouraging to other young writers who are working on their first blog post, or poem or story.  No matter what I write, to God be the glory. If I ever write anything that does not glorify Him hopefully it will never see the light of day. If it does, I expect that He will use y’all, my readers to point that out.

Shalom!

Yael Eliyahu

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